my huckleberry friend. (:

2010-05-24T22:56:00.001+08:00

Graduation! :))

To those who were unable to go for it, it's ok! 有心就好. I really enjoyed myself today. From being nervous (I was afraid that I'll fall on the stage cause my heels were a little too high), to really having a good laugh while clapping for those botak graduands, to taking pictures (or rather, having a good laugh when I saw all the cameras in front of us; we were attracting too much attention). I really really enjoyed myself. Also, Kelyn came today! :)) Congrats to my fellow classmates, always sticking to what I first believe, you guys are always MOT2 to me. :D I'm looking forward to saturday night's gathering at Seth's dad's pub! :)) been a longgg time! :))

Alrightey!, I'm moving my blog out of Blogger to Wordpress, soon! Reason being: there's a Wordpress application that I can download into my BB, instead of going into internet via BB to Blogger. Takes up too much time, and not very friendly to my eyes.

Also! Let's be sooooooo geared up for ASIA CONFERENCE! YAYYYYYY!

P.S.: I love you guys really much. Blessed!

2010-03-27T13:33:00.003+08:00

This song definitely brought tears and much thoughts. I felt super encouraged when this song played during the GB enrolment. I'm proud of my girls, and thankful to Serene and Jessie. (:

Okey doks! i'm already back from my hols, but i cant find the CAMERA! ): have yet to upload our pictures too. i just got to find the camera......... i hope to be able to meet my poly friends soon......... when's our outing?

SOT is great! i realised that im very very very happy everyday, learning different things! and Pastor Ming is very very funny. really enjoy the classes! YAY! :D I wouldnt mind going JW 24/7 now. hahahahah!

2010-02-21T15:38:00.001+08:00

Love sitting on bus! :) sometimes, a card is all that it takes for you to realise that you're really not alone. Especially during times when you feel lost, and at the brim of tearing. I've been through this before, and I overcame it. I did it, and I will do it again. Nothing is too hard! :)

2010-01-30T12:06:00.003+08:00

Finally it's coming to the end of Jan! And FYP is over, we're left w ship design before our papers starts. GOGOGO! After 3 years in NgeeAnn, I can say that I'm loving every moments with my classmates, every little bits. (: Right now, the only thing that I'm so looking forward to is March! Cause we're going for HOLIDAY! (: Though it's only KL and Genting, but still I know that it will be a time of fun. :D Also, what made me happy is the very fact that almost everyone will be going, 10 of us! (P.S. I still hope that EVERYONE will go.) Gonna be camping at Naro's place, with her golden retriever! Haaas! Yuting!, come come! ;)

It's so gna be a time of fun, I believe. (:

I still believe in your faithfulness

I still believe in your truth

I still believe in your holy word

Even when I don't see, I still believe.

Been thinking about the past 2 days. I know I've not made the wrong choice of applying and going on to SOT after poly. REJOICE, AND AGAIN I SAY REJOICE! :D TYG! (:

2010-01-02T15:55:00.007+08:00

Hello, I'm on bus 106 and I thought of blogging while listening to one of my favourite songs. :)

Today is the 2nd day of 2010, well HELLO! :) 2009 was indeed a crazy year. Done things that I've never done before, grew closer to some people, and drift apart from some, rushed into the new year, thinking that 2009 was crapped. But then again, I made a mistake. Many of us rushed into the new year, thinking that 2010 will be better (which obviously it will be), instead of living in a crapped year. But we're so wrong! 2009 was also a BLAST, well a least for me. As I stepped into 2010, I realised that 2009 itself was awesome. Out of all th ups and downs, at least one thing I know is that my 2009 was eventful. :)

One of the best: Going rebel with my classmates. In 2009, I think I grew closer to them, even though they lost to a pair of slippers on 31st dec. (Laughs!) They're a bunch of people that I'll love to hangout more ofen with! P.s. Don't laugh when you guys see this, I mean it! ;) Also, going to w498 and back to e410. They are seasons that changed me. I'm still very happy to have been in the two CGs. On the side note, I think my family grew closer! We were close, but closer than before. :) being able to have some heart to heart talk w mummy, it's just unbelievable.

There's so much I wna say but my thoughts are jumbled up, on top of that, my fingers are turning cold and stiff due to the air-con in the bus. Last but not least, I thank God for th people in my life. :) we ran, we fought, we cried, we laughed together. I know I will never walk alone, Johnny Walker. Ahhaas! On top of everything, EVERYTHING, I thank God for being my God. Times when I felt down, weak and felt like giving up, You came and comfort me. Once again, thank You dear God for being my God. :) and even if I search all the world, I will never find a love like Yours.

In 2010, all I want is to grow closer to God more than anything else. Of cos, there are other desires. But still, that is the cry of my heart.

2009-12-31T03:54:00.002+08:00

Thank you VER zone. (: You guys are the BESSSSTTTTTTT! :D

2009-12-17T18:48:00.003+08:00

So I look to You

So I look to You

No one else will do

No one else will do

Gonna chiong for my last paper. And gonna look towards my final exams. :D And I'm actually looking forward to go Thailand! (: Pet's idea to take a bus, yanhui said th ride will take up 16hrs! 16hrs!

Dearest Annie! I really enjoyed lunch with you! (: Thank you! :D

p.s. I feel so blessed. (:

Glen's coming back tmr! (: I'm feeling excited! *grins!* everyone is coming back for x'mas except for jacq. ohman, I miss her. :)

Dear God, I'm happy! (: 'M looking forward to X'mas! (:

2009-12-13T16:18:00.001+08:00

Sitting at expo's BK right now, studying. Seeing th group of youths sitting just in front of us, I thought about how we all were 3 years back. Every week after service, what do we enjoy doing th most? That's to sit at rocky master, chit chatting. Nonsense never stop.

Time flies! Now we're all in different cellgroups, having different, and more people in our lives. Time flies! :)

We're all gna end this year well! I believe. :)

Han: home econs?

Pet: isn't that for gahyong?

LAUGHS!

2009-12-03T01:44:00.002+08:00

Felt really challenged after talking to marc while on the way home! YES I CAN! :D

Listening to one last song for the night. My all time favourite, Corrine May.

2009-12-02T16:31:00.003+08:00

I didn't thought that Lady Gaga could sing, and that all her songs were made famous because of the catchy beat. But I was wrong!

I love this song, AWESOMEEEE IT IS! :D

2009-12-02T02:26:00.001+08:00

Got this from BIGpet SMALL pet's blog. nice! (: really, who will be there 24/7 to know all my thoughts?

2009-12-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

ahhaas! thanks dearest CHIPMUNKS for coming to support, though u guys left early! (: really rare chance to see you guys coming to church, esp for our dearest air-stewardess and ah hao. im so touch yep! and you guys are so loved by me. <3

ive got pictures to upload, but not now! 'cause i wna use my own laptop to upload! and also to get my hard disk back so that i can transfer all my files and get my laptop repaired! :D

2009-11-25T10:17:00.004+08:00

Here I am, still doing my project. ): From last night till now, and I K.O. halfway. Ohman. On top of that, David's assignment. ): And I've yet to send my SR. OVERDUE! ): And there's FYP. ): So many typing need to be done.

JIAYOU LILENG! :D

HAAAS! A CTRL S FOR NICOLE CHUA! I just saved you! LOLLLL! that short convo with her made my day! okays, back to do all my typing. ):

2009-11-19T03:15:00.002+08:00

Still my favourite song. I was looking out of the train and suddenly, I realised how beautiful the raindrops were on the train glass. They looked like stars in the sky at night. Beautiful.

ALRIGHTY! In 2 hours' time, I'll be on my way to KL, visiting my lovely grandma. Been at least 2 years since I last went in to visit her. I wonder how is she right now. Hopefully in a better condition. Grandma, ♥.

I'll spend the next few days thinking.

2009-11-15T21:56:00.005+08:00

What I received today! :D
Super duper good lozenges from Annie! :D A teacher's secret weapon! WOOHOO!
Power pack sermon that makes me wna tear w joy. I feel bless! :D
Great time w the youth team at Cecilia's house! Love Eiffel Tan la! she's super cute!

I really wna talk alot today. I think I used up my quota. ): And now I don't feel like talking. I talked talked talked the moment I met my sister for dinner. MY THROAT!! ZZZ.... But ohwell! A nice surprise from Hong, Vin and AhHaoAh~~~! HAHAHA!

Took 2 pictures of Tigger and I'm so gna post it up on Ter's FB! :D HEHEHE. (:

Okay! I think I need to sleep. But before that, I need to press the refresh button. :D

Goodnight peepsxzxzxzxzxzxz! :S

I miss hanging out w the BB people. ):

2009-11-13T23:08:00.001+08:00

I hope to recover by tmr! (:
Got to get back on track. (:

am talking to nicoleC on msn. Hope to see all the chipmunks sooon. :D

2009-10-29T00:24:00.001+08:00

I've got so much on my mind..
I'm glad i've got great leaders in my life.. (:

2009-10-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

Give us your strength, Lord. Because sometimes things get tough, and we are ready to quit.

Give us your love, Lord. Because sometimes people reject us, and we are tempted to hate.

Give us your eyes, Lord. Because sometimes life gets dark, and we lost our way.

Give us your courage, Lord. Because often we are put under pressure, and it's hard to do what's right.

Give us yourself, Lord. Because our hearts were made for you, and we will not rest until we rest in you.

-Mark Link, S.J

I think.....

2009-10-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

HUILAN!!! (: Somehow or rather, feeling excited for her. :D Love you dearest frnd! (:

I thought of huilan and her ahken when I hear this song. And we've yet to meet this AHKEN! Ahem, ChongHuiLan! X)

Thanks Kelyn for the Monopoly Singapore version. HAAAS! Can't imagine if I play this with yonghong and the rest sia!

2009-10-16T01:39:00.003+08:00

I thought........

But today's meeting encouraged me a lot. Nehemiah 3 encouraged me a lot.

(:

2009-10-06T13:18:00.003+08:00

Sparkles on Saturday! TANJUNHAO still have yet to upload pictures in face book. ): And he's now gone to Malaysia for some hacking competition! seeyou pal on Friday! (:(:

ECP on Sunday after svc w my pals. I'm glad they had fun tgt w my church frnds. Who say Christians cant have fun? HAHA! You were right! It was an awesome day, the Word was awesome too! The grass and the breeze there made our picnic so comfortable that both linn and liyun felt asleep! AHHAAS! Cycled all the way to changi airport, and ): Both ning and i are feeling the suan-ness in our legs now. Ohwell! But i guess we all had fun right? (:

OPM was a blast. I went there with a heart full of expectations. Indeed, God speaks. It got me thinking. Whatever Veron, Annie and Rhoda shared refreshed me once again. (: It is really all about maintenance.

I know I am loved by the King.

And it makes my heart want to sing. (:

This week is indeed gonna be a great and happening week! (:

2009-09-25T11:14:00.003+08:00

I was thinking about next semester and the next thing I know, I received a 3 message long of sms from dear farmer. Thanks for knowing what's on my mind. (:

All things are possible to those who believe. YEP, I WILL SURVIVE! :D

There's so many things that I want to do. And I'm gonna make them all happen! YES! :D I want to get at least a 3.3 and above for next semester. I want to spend a good time of solitude. Sounds emo? I'm not emo, just enjoy spending time with myself and God. :D And of course, get gifts! :D

Alright-ey! time for lunch! Gonna spend a good time with my family. :D

2009-09-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

Sunday svc was GREAT! Received a sms from a very unexpected person! SHAUN TEH! Awww. Really glad and thankful to have a little bro like him. (: Though it's been a very long time since we last talk or even to serve tgt, but really, it was very nice of him to drop me that msg. Thanks bro! (:

Oasiswar was super fun! :D really enjoyed it. I think yonghong enjoyed it ALOT lo. He was so happy to bomb the target. LOLLLL!

DUDUM DE DUM~~~

2009-09-21T15:53:00.001+08:00

Fancy free. (:

2009-09-19T23:53:00.004+08:00

HAHA sister, I cant help it that Paparazzi is a nice song! Alright! Enough of that song. And Im proud of myself! 'Cause even though I can't run for now, but Im still good at situps. yes. LOOYANHUI, don't laugh if ure seeing this.

Happy 21st to Junwei, and 20th to Teresa on monday! :D

Tmr will be an exciting day. Yep! Get ready to be blown away by a super powerpack sermon, and by water bombs. HAHAHA!

Till then. Goodnight.
:D

2009-09-18T15:46:00.002+08:00

Tmr is Saturday!

2009-09-17T11:05:00.003+08:00

OPEN TO ALL.

This coming sunday be prepared to come to the battlefield to experience Oasis Wars!

Date: 20th September 09, Sunday
Time: 1.30pm- 5pm
Venue: East Coast Park (field beside the Futsal cages)

Things to bring:

-Sports Attire (dark coloured t-shirt, shorts,preferably either shoes or sandals. Note that this war will get you wet! So do have a change of dry clothes)

-Water (bring a water bottle to stay hydrated)

-Money (at least $5 to pay for lunch and the shuttle bus ride from expo. Lunch will be provided!)

ARE YOU READY?

2009-09-16T12:47:00.007+08:00

Time to sit down, and reflect.
I am not perfect, but I will change.
Slowly but surely.

Indeed, I am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me! :D

CHEERIOS!

Back from chalet. The only night that I went was a blast. Should I use the word "blast"? HAHA! All thanks to CJ. But still, I have not had enough of the steamboat lea. HAHA! Gahyong was CLASSIC!

2009-09-12T00:45:00.007+08:00

BBQ with secondary school peeps. (: THANKYOU MR TAN FOR EVERYTHING! (: Had a great time, talking about silly things that we used to do. We all changed in one way or another.

Spin-The-Bottle session with my fav peeps was great. There's always nothing to hide whenever i'm with my fav people, be it from church, sch, or work. (:

A few best moments with the class.
1) The time when we saw a very clear rainbow, together with its refraction. Beautiful and memorable.
2) The last night class. Running around the level with ice cream cakes, ready to smash into anyone's face. haaas!
3) Human version of table soccer, with Fitri being out reporter. Haaaas!
4) Moments when Mr Tan was VERY angry with the class. He would scold us till both upstairs and downstairs could hear him. It was the scariest, but yet something we look forward to. Because we would cancel maths class the very next day. He took MC.
5) Last but not least, having each other when things happened.

SPEEDY RECOVERY! YAY! :D

Time to pack up, and emerge stronger! :D YES WE CAN! :D

2009-09-09T00:50:00.019+08:00

YAY! pics from PULAU UBIN! :D

ALRYTE! Goodnight world. (:

2009-09-07T02:31:00.000+08:00

LET'S ALL RUN TOGETHER.
NOW HEAVEN BE OPEN, AMEN!
To have a heart that loves,
To have that special anointing.

Indeed, "Life is a road and I want to keep going, Love is a river I want to keep flowing, Life is a road now and forever, A Wonderful journey". I choose to be on this wonderful journey. :D

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Unbelievably, I heard Lady Gaga's song everywhere I go today. And that includes going to Tina's blog. LAUGH OUT LOUD! Haha!

I was reminded of this verse.
Rom 8:37
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
Yes!, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us! (:

2009-09-06T02:08:00.003+08:00

I shouted, "Yes God!". And I wonder where that came from. (:

2009-09-04T01:49:00.002+08:00

I had some things on my mind this week. And I'm glad to have some things off my mind. I know one thing for sure, something I cannot get off my mind is that I have to pray even more than before. Got to be more discipline in this area. JIAYOU JIAYOU! GOGOGO! :D

OPM was a BLAST! :D Really, thanks Shan for the mighty prayer. (: OPM was one of the things that I was looking forward too. It was more than I had expected it to be. He is ABLE, He is GOOD, and He LOVES ME! :D

Helped out in Citycare today. I felt very much blessed to see all these children. Listening to Adrian conducting the class, I really hope for bright paths for them, hoping that they will grow up to mighty pillars. I'm starting to love kids more than I had. (:

And another great thing, we met WENDY CHUA for dinner today! I'm so in love with Chawanmushi! Heehees! I guess all of us had a good time. YAY! Kept laughing all the way. Hilarious, totally. And I'm super glad that she love the gift. I would love to go shopping with her soon Heehees! Though I wasn't able to send John off, but the very least I could do was to give him a call! (: Next week, it'll be Glen. Ohwell!, December is around the corner! :D

'm excited for the rest of the week, and also looking forward to next week! :D

让我为你而站立

2009-08-30T22:37:00.001+08:00

Today is a fulfilling day! :D And thank God that Zihao rented a car, seriously! :D I wna have my own car, a BMW convertible! Yes! But I think I have to wait long long. Haaaas! :D

Dinner with my dear friends at KFC was GREAAAT! :D Really wna thank God for strength! :D Yesterday went to surprise JIALIANG with the rest of the peeps! And we talked by the pool. Really did enjoy myself, though I was quite tired. hahaha! :D And I realised that we love to talk. ALOT. haaaas!

My weekends were great, but there's still more to come! EXCITED! :D

2009-08-24T14:20:00.002+08:00

Was thinking about the whole of yesterday. AWESOME! :D

From morning, meeting Linn to go Expo together :D, to the awesome sermon (POWER PACKED!), to meeting my usher leader for a longggggg talk (apologies to both liyun and ray for waiting so longggggg for me), to lunching at POPEYE! and all the funny conversation about "intereseting events in school" - ghost, to the conversation that I had with Jialiang and Teresa at Udders Ice Cream at Westmall, to dinner with my family! :D, and to the awesome surprise that we gave Windez.]

The stone of the past, prayer, piority, passion and persistence.

It's been a long time since we had such lovely gathering at our lovely area Bukit Batok. Though we may be in different cellgroups, doing different things throughout the week, going through different issues, but one thing that I am very certain about is that we are in the body of Christ. Our hearts beat as One. I'm proud and blessed to have this group of peers. And I'm sure they are too. (:

Awesome way to start my week. Refreshed, inspired, and provoked in a good way.

It is well in my soul. (:

Totally random, one part of the conversation that Jialiang, Teresa and I had was about SOT. We were talking age between 22 to 25. And Teresa asked ' Are we gonna be in the same team?! Cannot be in same team la. If not, very little options!' Haaas! Totally random but I still find it amusing. Jialiang!, how old are you? Haaas!

And, thanks to my dear friend Junwei for an awesome message that came on time! Enjoy grave digging (HAHAHA), I'll see you at the end of the week. :D

2009-08-22T19:41:00.000+08:00

Felt challenged while reading Windez's blog, in a good way. And I want to claim in belief that this time round the outcome is different.

Though there were so many times when I say I will learn, I never really did. I want to live out the destiny that God has placed in my life. I must learn. I want a breakthrough in my life. I want a breakthrough in the things that I am doing now. I want it not just good, but perfect. And the Word will carry me through. (:

Next week is water baptism. And I'm gonna do something practical about it. (:

2009-08-21T23:35:00.002+08:00

Everything's gonna be alright! :D

Jesus, You are more than enough. (:

2009-08-21T16:44:00.002+08:00

Arcade ytd with Windez. Was waiting for him at the station and funny it seems, I met quite a number of friends while waiting for him. The most unexpected face, Andy Teo. Been a few days since we last went mugging. And it was all thanks to him having to watch "Coming soon" at mac after studying. Ohman I feel like a fool at mac. And there was Andy's friends Aldrich sleeping while I freaked myself out with that show. And at the arcade, it was so weird to see familiar faces and yet there seems to be no names that matched their faces. Haaas! Another unexpected person was Zihao. I knew he was waiting for Leonard but somehow it didn't occur to me that he would be at the arcade playing while waiting.

Windez, let's go to the arcade often. Haaas, We got the card.

2009-08-19T18:47:00.001+08:00

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

I feel old while listening to this song.

But still, it's one of my favourite. (:

2009-08-19T03:59:00.002+08:00

How do I start?

My heart feels heavy at times.

In a few years' time, many good friends will be leaving. And maybe me too.

Dear friends. :')

I guess that's just how life is.

I feel sad now, not that much. But definitely sad when the time draw nearer.

We have all been too busy to catch up. Even when we meet, we study. I miss all the heart to heart talks that we used to have. I would like to meet you guys up soon. (:

Oh well, I'm back to that song.

2009-08-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

2009-08-05T22:56:00.001+08:00

Marshall did a super lame thing, well that's what i think. Cause both of us wna get macbook pro. and just nice his laptop is down. we sent it to the "hospital" on saturday (that's what he called the service centre). And on tuesday, i think, he called to tell me he got a macbook pro liao.
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and now he's missing his LG laptop. hahahaha!

2009-08-05T00:32:00.003+08:00

A few pictures which i found funny but cute. hahaha! Was laughing at many funny pictures with han the other day.

The pumpkin picture is rather funny. it's telling people not to get drunk and be like that pumpkin.

2009-08-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

What will it be 20 years from now? This reminds me of FRIENDS. But really, where will we be 20 years from now? Though pursuing our call in life, our visions, and our dreams, I hope this family will get bigger, and the bond will get stronger. Thank you for allowing me to be part of all this.
I love you guys. (:

2009-07-30T00:43:00.002+08:00

Ohman! This week had been a super busy week for me. Not just this week, but the past few weeks, and the weeks that have yet to come. This sem is gonna be over in a blink of an eye. I really want to do well for my final year.

Well, there's so many things to hand in this week, and our fyp presentation. FORMAL WEAR! ): And it's on a FRIDAY! So guys, be prepared to see me enjoy fop in formal. Haaas! Can't wait for friday to come. Why? 'Cause I'll reward myself for this whole week of chionging with a super good sleep on friday night! YEP, no doubt about it! :D

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

2009-07-28T00:10:00.005+08:00

reminiscing the good old days of Spice Girls, all thanks to my lovely classmates.

2009-07-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

I do not want to only talk to talk, but I want to walk the walk. (:
I need to.

2009-07-24T00:39:00.007+08:00

I am determine to go back to the series of Friends. :D (That is, when I have the time. Haaaas!)

Dinner/catching up today was good. I guess we all had fun. Haaaas! It good to catch up with friends who I really love hanging out with. Though there are times when I do get annoyed when they are late. Haaaas! Oh well, I do too. Got to increase in my capacity, and not get annoyed so easily. FORGIVE ME PEOPLE! (: Esp Junwei and Liyun, you guys never fail to lend me your ears. Haaaas! I guess sometimes, your ears are having a hard time yea? :P

I don't want to be too caught up with family, school, cellgroup, and ushering till I forget to do some catching up with friends. I don't want to be too focus on some areas until the extend that I lose sight of the other areas.

BALANCE IS THE KEY! (:

2009-07-23T13:41:00.001+08:00

Will I be on time for change? Or will I arrive a little too late?

let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.

2009-07-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

There are many times when I feel lost as to what to do next. There are many times when I made mistakes, and make a mess out of them. There are many times when I wonder if I've done anything wrong, and yet not knowing. There are many times when I just can't bottle things up and start opening up, but I end up worrying if others might think I'm complaining or gossiping when all I really want is just a listening ear. There are many times when I do feel childish rather than childlike.

Yet, I can only pray and hope and believe that He will move and do many works in my life. There are little foxes here and there, there are mistakes that I may be repeating. But I believe, with true repentance, one day I will have the power to overcome all these. (:

I don't want to be a perfectionist. I don't want to add extra stress to myself like how I had. I just want to do my best in all that I'm doing. And through it all, let me be changed to be more like Christ. (:

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto You

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song not mine
It is your song that bring healing to this land
This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song

2009-07-12T18:27:00.005+08:00

Saturday's service was amazing. I was reminded of various things.

In summary, exactly what these few verses are saying:

But recall the former days in which, after you were illuminated, you endured a great struggle with sufferings: partly while you were made a spectacle both by reproaches and tribulations, and partly while you became companions of those who were so treated; for you had compassion on me in my chains, and joyfully accepted the plundering of your goods, knowing that you have a better and an enduring possession for yourselves in heaven. Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise: “For yet a little while, And He who is coming will come and will not tarry. Now the just shall live by faith; But if anyone draws back, My soul has no pleasure in him.” But we are not of those who draw back to perdition, but of those who believe to the saving of the soul.

This week had been a mind blowing experience. Indeed, His rod and His staff, they shall comfort me. (:

Love Never Fails - Jonathan Butler

2009-07-08T23:53:00.013+08:00

Suddenly in the middle of the night, i wonder "what is a blog for?" I guess i'll be leaving this here for awhile. I need some time of solitude. I need to get away from the packed schedule. I enjoy every moments being by myself. Not trying to be emo here, but really wanting more time to refresh myself. Maybe i'll go to a beach somedays. Or maybe the airport. Or Marina Square, my favourite. Or perhaps, go jogging, my favourite too. When was the last time i had a good time of solitude? I love helping out here and there. I love to have a great time of fellowship with my friends. I love to teach. But at the same time, i got to learn to put aside some time for myself. I got to learn to balance. Jn 17:19 (:

转动的梦想实现着希望
我已看见永恒的光芒
光芒在我心上
在世界绽放让我为你照亮

Got to jiayou jiayou jiayou now. Got to chiong all the way. W498 got to have a breakthrough. JIAYOU! (:

I want to break this barrier. I will see the other side, I will arrive. We will all arrive to our place of breakthrough. A call to persevere, Heb 10:19-39, one of my favourite part in the Bible. We will arrive.

2009-07-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

Dearest farmer,
thank you for letting me to be part of your life! the ups and downs, the happy and sad occasions, thanks for letting me being there, lending you my ears. be it to encourage you, or you encouraging me, thanks for letting me being there. there's so much i want to say, so many times, how i wished we have time to hangout like how we used to. but i know though we are busy with our own lives, i believe we are supporting each other spiritually, having mutual trust. jiayou in the ministry that you are growing and focusing in. let's run this race the best we can! (:
- Loves, seed.

Dearest Xinyu,
welcome back! we've got so much catching up to do. (: i feel really blessed to have a friend like you. (:
- Loves, LiLeng.

Today's herbert last day in singapore and he's flying off tmr noon to NZ for 2 and a half yrs. ): won't get to send him off tmr. SAD! and this blogger don't allow me to upload pictures that we took we herbert. SAD X2! well, i hope he enjoyed being with us. (: dear frnd, jiayou and be that shining star! (:

This week had been a totally bad week,. all BS plannings gone wrong, miscomm with my dearest frnd TT, suddenly change in forecast. wooow! but i guess, i'll learn. (: Jiayou LL! (:

2009-07-02T00:36:00.004+08:00

many things on my mind,. this this and this. not gonna let all this(s) bother me. looking forward to thursday. (:

2009-07-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

i wonder what is going on in my frnd's life. tell me if i've guessed wrongly, but i think i know. we always know what's on each other's mind even though we never speak a word about things. but then again, i don't like playing guessing game. dear frnd, what's going on? what's wrong?

i hoped i've guessed right,. that shows that we still flow together.

2009-06-26T08:27:00.005+08:00

When I turn 80, just filled with excitement even at the thought of it. (: Even when I turn 80, still I want to love Him, serve Him. Even when I turn 86, still I want to jump and enjoy myself, to go on both knees. And even when I turn 87, still I want to go down for various alter calls. And the many years to come...

When I turn 86, I want to tell the world that I have been in love with the Lord for 70 years, and my love for Him is still growing stronger than every yesterdays. (:

SOS had been a blast for me. I may not be there yet, but I'm still trying.

莉铃，加油！

:D

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And yes, everyone's changing their hairstyle! :D

Tiean and Shan went Malaysia to get their hair done a couple of weeks ago. Last week Meiqi's, super cute! Haaas! She doesn't like it when people say that she looks cute! Tuesday when I met Liyun, the first thing I said, "You rebond your hair! And your hair is black!" Glen too! She rebond too! And yesterday when I saw Huiting, her fringe! And Zhenzi too! Her bob hairstyle and the bangs. Amazing! And yes, mine!

Got to make mine clear, it's my job. I went to work as a hair model! And, look out next weekend for another change. Haaas! Gonna be a hair model AGAIN! X)

Ohwell, like what my sister said before, I always get the weirdest jobs. :D

2009-06-21T21:27:00.003+08:00

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

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Got to live by faith, and not by sight.

Had a great dinner with daddy dearest today! I cooked for him for the second time this year. (: Satisfied with my cooking skill. Hehhs!
Thanks daddy for every thing, every sacifices that you've made for this family. (:

2009-06-19T02:34:00.002+08:00

Most of the time, God surprises us in ways we never thought could happened. (:

Today's a good day! Impacted and Impacted. Hahahaha! Don't really think most peeps out there will even understand what I'm typing about. Oh well! :D

There was a green pasture in front. There were directions everywhere. And yet, all ways seem to be a good way. There's nothing very wrong about them. But in the direction of the arrow pointing left, I could see nothing else except a border. Not really a border, rather, unknowns. I'm choosing to go by faith. But at times, it can be scary to know that what are out there are unknowns.

I already know the answer, they already know what is going to come out from me. I can only continue to pray, visualise and have faith. Faith is a choice.

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Chapter 1 to Chapter 2: Helpless (It takes forever to find my way out). But he begin to pick up (It still takes a long time to get out).

Chapter 2 to Chapter 3: (But it isn’t my fault). Taking responsibility of his mistake (It is my fault). Learned from past mistakes (I get out immediately)

Chapter 3 to Chapter 4: A better way to handle situation (I walk around it).

Chapter 5: He plans, he sees the same mistake there but he found another way to avoid the mistake that he made (I walk down another street).

2009-06-18T01:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder..
what is a blog for?

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Chapter 1:
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost…
I am helpless.
It is not my fault.
It takes forever to find my way out.

Chapter 2:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I still fall in…It’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter 4:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter 5:
I walk down another street.

- Portia Nelson

What do u guys see/learn from here...?

2009-06-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

It's gonna get harder, results by a lot, Yet i know it is a molding process. It may be tough, yet i know i just got to stand in the gap. I may even cry, yet i know i got to pack up all the disappointment and saddness and continue to trust in Him.

Where's your "But God" factor? I know i've got it right here with me. What about you?

2009-06-14T00:40:00.003+08:00

Happy 21st to LIM LIYUN! X)X)X)
Alright! That's CHERYL TAN LIYUN! :D
Hope u love the gift that we got u!
:D

WITH LOTSA LOVEEEEEEE!,
LiLeng!

2009-06-12T02:40:00.002+08:00

I love the tune! Super catchy! :D But still, I don't know what this song is about! LOLLL!

Really got to guard my heart, especially during this period of time. No disappointments are gonna put me down. No stresses are gonna drive me nuts. I'll be just like an eagle, riding on the storms, riding on my storms, to higher ground. (:

2009-06-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

Was super grumpy about certain things. Sincere apology to the innocent parties! And Cheerios! :D

I've got to work harder in this aspect. So much harder.

2009-06-10T11:18:00.003+08:00

it's celebrity weekend this week. super excited for it! :D

AND! here's the evidence!

LOOYANHUI'S FAT HANDS!

2009-06-09T17:47:00.002+08:00

TO FRIENDLY GIANT, KERK POH KEONG,
HAPPY 24TH! :D

2009-06-07T23:05:00.003+08:00

Now I know how comfortable I was in VTSZ. Well, now that we are VTZ, together with so many unknown faces, it's starting to get uncomfortable. But!, change is always for the better. Being uncomfortable is good. :D

Now, I'm excited to expand our West-Sider gang. Also, our BB gang! Don't you feel the excitement coming in? To know more people, to expand my social circle, and definitely to increase in capacity. Aren't you excited? I'm feeling so uncertain but at the same time, I'm excited for the unknowns. How contradicting these feelings are! Oh well, LL is always excited for the weird things. Haha!

All my delight is in You Lord.
All of my heart, all of my strength.

God, I thank You for all the great friends that I have. Dear friends, let's keep on keeping on. (: Dear new friends, let's get to know each other and have fun together while growing together! :D

Dearest Veron, (:

2009-06-07T01:06:00.002+08:00

Second session of BS on SOS was a blast. Totally blow me away. (: God kept reminding me of a specific event. It was so detail, almost as though I went back to time. It felt so real, so close to heart. And He reminded me a this piece of paper. It was filled with visions and dreams. He reminded me of that. I got to come out of my four walls. I got to keep trying and set no boundaries for myself and for God Himself. I can't let the past experience to just put me down. I just got to keep trying and never give up. In life, it's always making of decisions; you either choose to go through the fire and be refined like gold over a period of time, or you choose to give it up just for that moment for pleasure.

The human mind is the greatest battlefield.

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Birthday week was super good except for a little miscommunication here and there. Haaas!

First up!, thanks junwei for Wednesday, though the surprise flopped big time. Haaas! The ice-cream spoon came much earlier even before the ice-cream came! LOLLL! Junwei was so funny. He pretended that he had no idea why was it on our table. Totally flopped!

Secondly, my lovely class! LOLLL! Another surprise which flopped too! I was just one row in front of my classmates during lecture when they were discussing who had lighter. Haaas! They gave me a difficult task and yanhui tried to smash my face into the cake a few times! Hai hao the task was too easy for me. Hohoho!

Thirdly, the birthday surprise from lovely BB gang together with JiangHao, Rhoda and Venis. But again!, the surprise flopped! All because of the dog next door. LOLLL! Love the cake so much! :D

Fourly, the dinner was awesome! But, I expected the gift coming because Connie told me that Teresa said she went to buy that! But again, dinner was awesome. (:

See, all celebrations's surprise flopped! LOLLL! But still, I enjoyed every celebrations! (: Thanks peeps! Love you guys many many many! Heheheh! :D

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So many unknowns in every different aspects.

2009-06-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Angry old lady. ROFL.

2009-06-02T19:29:00.001+08:00

I'm afterall human, I make mistakes too.

2009-06-02T17:55:00.004+08:00

One who, out of good intention, made a white lie together with insensitive tone. The other overreacted and made a hoohaa out of it. How funny can things be? It's just all a misunderstanding.

And now I'm having a good laugh at two silly people; my friend and I.

when misunderstanding occurs, quickly clear it up with an open heart, brush it off your chest and be joyful. (:

There are still some things that I need to address...

2009-05-31T21:56:00.007+08:00

Today, I received two emails, each from two lovely people.

Today, my cellgroup showed me their funny side, they tried hard to hide the cake and card.

Today, I had fun helping out for Harvest House.

Today, LiLing is super duper happy. Actually she's always happy.

Today, today feels like a start of something new. No limitations, like what Howard wrote.

Today, I'm leaving all my troubles behind.

(:

2009-05-29T12:52:00.002+08:00

When I submit my assignment online, immediately this music played in my mind!

Super random and weird! 'Cause it's been a longgggggg time since i last played Final Fantasy! X)

2009-05-29T04:30:00.002+08:00

Discrimination against physical appearances, darker skin tone?
Now, who are the ones who gave you electricity everywhere? Who are the ones who makes your life better? Who are the ones who went through the hardship and yet receive something that they should receive?

Frankly speaking, the day when Teresa and I had a good talk at Tampines, when I saw the Bangala workers pulling the cables under the scorching Sun, immediately it came to me that they are the ones who set the infrastructure for us. Yet many times they are not being appreciated. Singapore, why is it so?

Okay, lets not talk about Bangalas, I'll talk about toilet cleaners and those who clear our plates at the coffee shops. They are the ones who clean the toilets for us. They are the ones who allow us to have a clean table to eat at. Though they may be slow at clearing most of the time, why is it that people look at them in a way as though they are very dirty? As though they are of lower status in the society?

Okay, report is eating me up. But yes, this is what I have to say. Can't anyone give them a smile? You never know. You might be an angel in disguise.

2009-05-28T10:46:00.002+08:00

One of my favourite song, and also, one of my most favourite video.

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

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I'll 咬紧牙关. Chiong all my assignments and quizzes. And I'll have a super duper good time with my classmates on Saturday morning! Breakfast - Dim Sum! Har Gow!!! XD

2009-05-27T20:54:00.003+08:00

I found some super long ago pictures in my class.
When we were in yr 1 and 2.

Many other pictures are in facebook! :D

Everyone's changed now! And That's a good thing. I think.. Haaas!

We played hangman after lab! :D
All the famous lines that we used to say.

Budi : MOT! Chio bo? Swee bo?

Liwen : Hello everybody. My name is Zhu Li Wen and I come from China.

Gahyong : I am the most respectable s***.

I think budi's was the funniest! I remember it was during orientation! And he was the most hyper-est! And that sentence of his totally made me go "..." , "..........".

2009-05-26T23:59:00.006+08:00

I'm amazed by what I typed for my IS online assignment. Whatever that's in there, it all the things I've learnt in church. I'm so amazed. :D

See, going to church helps you so much more in your studies too! It gives you great insight. :D

Ohyea,. when I click "SUBMIT", immediately this part of the song, No Boundaries, played in my head.
With every step you climb another mountain.

2009-05-25T18:02:00.004+08:00

I wanna get this DVD! Fireproof.

And, I'm so loving Kris Allen! X) and of cause his song!

I seriously think that his version of this song is way better than Adam Lambert's.

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries

2009-05-24T20:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was great great great! Make up CG was great! Yesterday was basically a happy day for me because of friends, because of the Holy Spirit, and because of God. (:

Met up with THE USUAL LAME-MOS at Plaza Sing for dinner together with HUITING and CHAO! For the very first time, Huiting join us! :D And she saw the super lame side of us! And both TT and SER!, they made me 哭笑不得! I guess they love me toooooo much huh! But!, I got to know their weakness! PTL! :D Ohyes!, we had TAO HUAY for supper!! X)

Had a super great day yesterday. And not to forget, Sunday. (:

To Jade and Jenn (not sure if you guys will even read this though), thanks for today!, and also for being super lovely leaders in my life. (:

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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

- Reinhold Niebuhr

2009-05-23T10:30:00.006+08:00

I know this sounds crazy! But Connie and I are listening to Sister Act 1 & 2 songs! On a Saturday morning, 10am.

And the first song that we heard is!

I love the chorus of the song!
'Cause baby, there ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
I'll say a YES to this! And this song just got me into the very mood I want, that is to go through my day being happy and confident. (:

And this!,

It is a beautiful song. (:
I will follow Him,
Ever since He touched my heart I knew,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love.

The title just says it all. Oh Happy Days
He taught me how to watch fight and pray,
Fight and pray,
And he taught me how to live rejoicing yes, He did,
Oh yeah, every, every day
Every day!

And finally, this song. After all the rah-rah songs int between here and there.

I love this part of the song.
But attitude will catch up with you
And keep you from your destiny
So true.

I love watching Sister Act 1 & 2. So funny but heart-warming too.

Fellowship was super duper great last night! (: And also fellowship with part of the Batok peeps. We had a great time of talking and laughing at Mac, our all time favourite hangout place. And I can't believe we can talk and laugh until 4am in the morning! Awesome! :D

Alright! Got to prepare to go out. Meeting Connie and Shiying on the way! (:

2009-05-22T16:27:00.002+08:00

There's only 3 movies on my mind right now! :D

Firstly!, Angels & Demons

But!, everyone seem to have watched it already. ):

And!, Terminator Salvation

I've never love Terminator when I was a child. But!, out of no where I became so addicted to the TV series of Terminator The Sarah Conner Chronicles. And that was when I starting loving Terminator! Hehehehe!

And finally, Transformer 2! :D

The first movie was absolutely fantastic! 'M not gonna miss out the 2nd movie! :D

Exams are around the corner. And!, good movies are around the corner too! ):

2009-05-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

How was my day? Great I guess! :D

We watch wonderbaby AGAIN, AGAIN, and AGAIN!! For the don't know how many times! Han is a pedophile! He totally lost his image. X) The class had been watching him watching wonderbaby for the past don't know how many weeks. I think since the second week of school. But this time, we found something else in the video to laugh at! School's great! :D

BS was great too! Was amazed by what Howard taught both last week and this week. And, got to hang out more with Howard! Yea! That is, after common test. ): Speaking about common test, it's the week after my birthday! Boooo! ): Ohwell!

Dinner with Ser Ter and KPK at Clementi! Had a super good time with them. Yep yep!

The past week had been rather amazing. (:

2009-05-21T09:30:00.004+08:00

I can't help but to feel emotional this weeks. Or probably, in the next few months too. I'm in my final year, and it's scary. Right now, all I want to spend quality time with my classmates. (:

2009-05-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

Corrinne May's never fails to express out my thoughts. Actually, songs. Haaas!

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Sent Jason off yesterday. Vietnam don't have Popeye. So we had that for brunch! (Brunch is so GG's term la!) At least now, it's not so much of a sad feeling. But rather, a happy feeling. When he stepped in, the only thing that was on my mind was "My son’s come home again." That explains why I had a happy and light feeling instead of a sad and heavy heart. I'll miss him.

I remembered the day when he came back, when Zhuneng msn-ed me saying that Jason was back, the next thing, he called me. Right at that moment over the phone, I felt happy. I felt so happy that it made me wna cry.

I'm looking forward to see him in a few months' time. And I'm gonna plan a list of activities to do. Really want him to enjoy while he is here. (:

Friend, I'm looking forward to see you sooon! :D

After that, went Tampines with Teresa. I guess both of us are starting to see things in a different light. Which really amazes me. (:

And lastly!, how is it possible that two people will be able to have the same thing in mind, and say the same thing? It's only when you listen and obey, that everything falls into place! Don't think that though certain things may seem impossible, therefore, you hear wrongly from God. Because it is not.

When God says "It's okay.", He really mean "It's okay."

2009-05-17T16:13:00.008+08:00

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what is Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into Eternity

It's your walk, it's your journey. It's how you are going to finish this race. But what matters most is the process, not the product. Life is a process. Though there might be many ups and downs, but that's what makes the ride exciting. The most valuable takeaway is not the product but it's what you learn from it. I may be sad, but it's only for awhile. You are still my dear friend, you are still my dear brother. (:

- To my dear friend, my dear brother.

I like what willyjoe wrote.

People's decisions will have an impact on your life. We cannot escape from that. We cannot stop people from making their own decisions as they have been given a free will by God. But we can choose the way how we handle the impact. Are we gonna stay positive or are we gonna become negative? We must decide. If we do not decide, we have already decided to become negative.

Hope is for the future, faith is for the present.

My Life Story.

2009-05-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

My Life Story.

My family first stayed at Jurong west when both my sister and I were very young. At that time, my parents sent my sister to a childcare centre whereas I was sent to Malaysia to be taken cared by my grandma every 3 to 4 months. Whenever I’m back, I’ll accompany my parents to fetch my sister home from the childcare centre. Even though I did not attend it, but both my sister and I would join the supervisor and her family to church. I was barely five then. Though I can’t recall many events before I turned seven years old, but church was one significant event to me.

After a few years, we shifted out of the area, into Bukit Batok. I began to attend Bukit View Primary School, and that was how I got to know this friend, Merlyn. We became very good friends and her family invited me to their church, Singapore Bible Baptist Church. Somehow, when she invited me to church, I felt joy within me. Though at that time, I didn’t have a relationship with God, but I enjoyed myself at church. I attended their camp, and said the sinner’s prayer. But at that time, I didn’t know what it meant to “receive salvation”. Soon, Merlyn shifted out. And we both went into the next phase of our lives.

As I grew up, I became someone who loved to seek excitement, someone who was curious about the world. And I became very easily agitated and defiant towards my dad. It was like as if there was an angry monster within me. I wanted so badly for someone to understand what was happening to me. I ended up making friends with the “bad company”, got in and out of many wrong relationships. Though I knew the way I treated my family was wrong, though I knew that the things I did were not right, but I could not stop myself from doing all the wrong things. I just couldn’t understand why I did what I did, or why I felt what I felt.

Secondary four was my turning point. I was being made a scapegoat. And it was so bad that even people from the other streams knew about it. It hit me so suddenly, and hard. Because some of them who made me the scapegoat were my classmates. Not only were they my classmates, they were the people who I hang out with almost every day.

Because of this incident, I became very fearful and negative. Also, I found it hard to trust anyone. It felt like as though the bubbly girl just died. There was so much hurt and fear in me, even though I didn’t know if God is real or not, I turned to God every day. I needed someone to listen to me 24/7. Every day became a crying session as I told God about the fears and anger in me. I remember sitting in one corner of the bathroom, crying. It was this incident that made me felt God. Though I couldn’t see Him, somehow I just knew He was there listening and comforting me. It brought comfort to know that someone was listening to what I had to say. And every day in the bathroom crying, became a healing session.

Things got better for me emotionally. And He began to show me friends who I can really turn to, friends who were always there to support me. And I remembered telling God “If You are real, send me someone to invite me to church.” And indeed, I got to know Rhoda within a few months. Because He really sent “someone”, I couldn’t deny the fact that He really listens, even if it was just a thought in my mind.

After I gave my heart to Christ, my life started to change. That anger monster in me seems to have disappeared. And I had the mental strength to say “No” to temptations in life. My relationship with my family became better too. No longer will you hear the shouting and quarreling, no longer will u hear banging of the doors. I believe that when both my sister and I began to honor God, and allowed Him into our circumstances, He was really there to bring in healing into my family. Many times when I think back, I thank God for being in every phase of my life. Indeed, He is the God of my youth. I don’t regret asking Him to send someone into my life.

(:

- LiLeng.

2009-05-16T12:39:00.005+08:00

credits to: asuriel

One day a man found the cocoon of a butterfly, with a small opening just starting to appear. So, he sat down to watch as the butterfly struggled for several hours to force its body through the hole.

Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared to the man that it had gotten as far as it could.

Then, the man decided to help the butterfly, so he took a pair of scissors and snipped the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and the body would contract, so it could fly -- but neither happened. Sadly, the butterfly spent the rest of it's life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It was never able to fly, or be a truly beautiful butterfly.

What the man in his well meaning kindness and haste did not understand, was that the restricting cocoon, and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening, was God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly, into its wings, so that it would be ready for flight once it got out of the cocoon.

Sometimes, like the butterfly, the struggles we go through in life are necessary, although we usually don't understand why. If God allowed us to go through life without any obstacles, it could hurt our growth. Then we would not be as strong as we should be -- and it could keep us from soaring to the wonderful heights that HE has planned for you and me.

Addendum -- Hebrews 12:11 (NIV) "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."

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This story never fails to encourage me.

2009-05-15T12:11:00.004+08:00

Had the sudden urge to listen to this song. So old. But I find it nice! :D
I even have the show at home! King and I. Haaas!

Getting to know you,
Getting to know all about you.
Getting to like you,
Getting to hope you like me.

Getting to know you,
Putting it my way,
But nicely,
You are precisely,
My cup of tea.

Getting to know you,
Getting to feel free and easy
When I am with you,
Getting to know what to say

Haven't you noticed
Suddenly I'm bright and breezy?
Because of all the beautiful and new
Things I'm learning about you
Day by day.

Haaas! Remind me of Someone most of us know. God! X)

Okay, LiLeng feels for oldies for the past few days. Haaas!

2009-05-15T01:38:00.005+08:00

Dear friend,

Though we might not know what you are going through, though i might not know what you are going through or even how you are feeling right now, and though we hardly, or perhaps, never had even a single heart-to-heart talk before, just wanna let you know that we are all here for you. You will never be walking alone. You had us for the past two years, and you will continue to have us for the years to come.

The going may gets tougher, but it's only through this that the tough gets going, and the tough gets tougher. You will grow to be stronger, you will grow to handle the whole situation even better. Jiayou my dear friend! You are not alone.

Dear friend, I'll keep you in prayers, and your situation too. You know Him too and I don't need to elaborate. He is who I always turn to for strength. People who might not know me, they don't know where I got the strength to go through situations in my life. But I'm sure you do know this.

(:

- From your classmate, LiLeng. (:

2009-05-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS:
Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

BRIDGE:
I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

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BS was great. (:

2009-05-13T03:05:00.001+08:00

Cheers to junwei, junchen, venis, aaron, pok, and many more!
We are almost there! It's gonna be complete sooon! Yays! :D

2009-05-11T20:37:00.001+08:00

Had the sudden urge to listen to this song.
My favourite song since young!
Oldies, I like! (:

2009-05-11T08:14:00.003+08:00

woooots!
had a super busy night. but yet at the same time!, fruitful.
the skill of multitasking!

JunHao, Serene, Zihao, ChanTong, Teresa, ZhuNeng, Pohkeong and me!
we learn the art of spamming and also, standing in unity! hohoho!! :D

and i did my slides tooo!! all thanks to junwei's nagging. haaaas!
thks frnd! X)

okay. lileng is a little tired and cranky now.
and i'm hungry.. ):

2009-05-10T21:01:00.009+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

I really wished that my mum was there to watch the drama. It made me cried. I missed my mum!! But thank God, she's coming home tomorrow! Haha! I thought about it many times and I got to say, I want to live near my parents when I'm married. Hehhs!
Okay, I think too much. X)

I enjoyed myself very much at church today. Really enjoyed being able to sing and rejoice in the presence of God, without restriction. Well, that's the attitude that God wants to see. That we do not put on a mask in front of Him. So what if you put on a mask in front of Him? He knows your deepest thoughts, He knows how you are feeling, He knows what you are going through. You can kid anyone but you can never kid God! And He is always there saying "If you are willing to lean onto Me, I will be more than happy and willing to strengthen you and carry you through your circumstances." I'm happy to know God.

Friday was definitely a refreshing time for me. Got to rely on God more. Why dig my own well when there's living water? I still hope that situations will change and people will be once again touched by His love, but I also know when I put allow God to come into my situations and IF they allow God into their situations, things will change and people will indeed be touched. Just like what Grace said today, because I honor God and allow Him into my situation, allow Him to take charge of things, I now see my sister turning to God, and even seeing her looking forward to go SOT!

My heart broke when I learned that a goodfriend of mine, is not coming church, not allowing God into his situation. Leaning on his own strength. And telling God that he will come back to church after his situation is settled. I spent my lunch thinking..

Though lunch was great and Uno was very fun, I kept thinking. Ohwell!, Enough of sad things. Yea. I had plenty of fun playing Uno today. (: And photo-taking! And Ben taught Marc how to photoshop. LOLL! Our reactions were funny la! Can teach anyone. But not Marc! Had dinner together with some of them. I missed spending time with the subzone. It seem like as though the time we spent is never enough. But still, I thank God that it's quality time that we spent together. (:

Met Grace today at church! And I'm so glad that she made an effort to come for Expo's service. I really meant a lot to me. Like what the drama said, mothers always sacrifice. I see Grace sacrificing, having to wake up baby Sol to go for an earlier service, it's a big decision for her. I miss Grace a lot. Ever since she shifted to Pandan Garden, she's always going for JW svc. I'm really very glad to see her today. (: And it was rather amazing. Though we have not met and talk for a long time, it's really wonderful to see that we're both so open! I missed serving under her. (:

Yay! Had a good chat with Junwei! Yay!

Ok! Back to slides and reports.
Jiayou LiLeng!! :D

A little edit,.
Do read veron's blog. I guess it really serve as a reminder to many of us. (: Both posts.

2009-05-09T12:38:00.003+08:00

let's sing sing sing and be happy because the joy of the Lord is our strength! Yay! :D

cellgroup meeting was a blast. (:
and had a good talk with jialiang and zihao in zihao's car! hahaha! seriously, i nvr had the chance to have a real talk with zihao. but ytd was good. (:

something that i found in youtube, here!
enjoy reading this, and listening to this song in my blog! yays!

I can sing in my troubled times and sing when I win.

I can sing 'cause You're always there to pick me up whenever I fall.

I can sing 'cause You hear me Lord when I'm on my knees.

I can sing 'cause You feel my hurt and You're the healer and restorer of my soul.

I can sing 'cause You're the source of my strength when I'm weakened from the battle.

I can sing 'cause You're my shield that is able to quench all the fiery darts coming at me.

I can sing 'cause You're the light that shines when everything seems so dark and unknown.

I can sing 'cause You're always there to direct my path and You discipline and rebuke those whom you love.

I can sing 'cause I have a friend who sticks closer than a brother which also my counselor and my comforter.

I can sing 'cause You're the solid ROCK where my feet stand firmly, where the crashing waves and storms could not shake!

I can sing 'cause if my own heart comdemns me, YOU ARE GREATER THAN MY HEART AND KNOWS ALL THINGS. Your voice of assurance is greater than any other accusation.

I can sing 'cause even when I fail You, I know You love me and I can confess everything to You. You're faithful and JUST to forgive my sins and to cleanse me from all of my unrighteousness. And I'm being transformed into Your likeness from glory to glory day by day.

I can sing 'cause I have the cross and an empty tomb as my greatest motivation to keep me walking in faith and to continue enduring this race.

I can sing 'cause I have the sword of the Spirit, which is You and I have You written all over my heart and mind. I breathe Your holy presence and I delight feeding on Your words.

I can sing 'cause You're the greatest sheperd of all and You alone I will listen to, You alone I will follow and You alone I will trust and give all that I have.

and I can sing forever and ever 'cause You're an awesome, kind and loving God. Your ways are perfect, You know what You're doing and You're in total control of everything. My life is secured in Your hands. You gave me eternal life, and I will never perish; neither shall anyone snatch me out of Your hands. Now that's amazing!

LORD JESUS YOU ARE MY SONG! and no one can ever take that away from me.

You're the sweet beautiful song playing in my heart. You're the mighty and powerful song that is able to SILENCE all other noises around me. You gave me peace in my heart that this world can't give. Your sound is always brand new to me and it refreshes me all the time.

2009-05-08T09:54:00.005+08:00

Been taking cab everyday to school. So tiring. ): I need sleep and I know I'll have a good sleep after today. :D Temporary. The current one is not even over and another is on the way. Presentation. And there's fyp too! ):

Well well. It seem like all the year3s are busy busy busy. Even for those in other polytechnics too!

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Was suppose to go for the flyers yesterday. Butbutbut.... I went to meet XINYU instead. Yep. She's the matter I need to attend to. Important friend. By the time she left, Teresa said I don't need to come. Which was good! =X 'Cause I had slides to prepare! I'll make it up to Connie and the rest another day. :D

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Was reading meiqi's blog. And I understand how she felt while typing those things down. We were so closed yet so far. Veron mentioned that the friendship breaks when two stops communicating. Is true.

The other day when I was over msn conferencing with Teresa and Serene, I can't help but to feel something missing. And that's definitely you guys. Have I lost someone important? I have. Not just one. But three. While talking to them over msn, I felt the urge to call you guys up. But then again, what do I say when I call? It will be that bubbly tone that I will receive. A tone that gives an impression that nothing really bad happened actually. If so, then why are we so far apart?

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Okay. Back to the slides.

2009-05-07T02:43:00.004+08:00

A song that calms my heart even though it's raining outside.
Thank You Lord. (:

Again, let's have a thankful heart, and remember the goodness of God...
(:

There is no greater love than yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like yours God.

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Tmr will be a fruiful day! Yays! :D

2009-05-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

Introducing to you......!

Kids meal! X) from secret recipe.

Haaas!

I'm hungry now. Greatness! ):

2009-05-05T01:17:00.008+08:00

What's one of the best blessings that God can ever give?

Friends. (:

Friends who listen to Westlife's songs together with you in the middle of the night. Haaas!

Let's be thankful for every little things. (:

Thanks guys for praying for me, and all those who were sick. When two or more come together to pray, God is there. Well, I can say that there are many twos and threes. Haaas! That's why, many people in the subzone are healed. (:

And I'm amazed by how fast I recovered. The day my fever left, I can even go out. Met up with Jasper ShanShan and Ter for Astons and Secret Recipe. Had my Kids' meal too. Yays! And the rest came after that! Manhattan Fish Market!! Wheeees! And on Sunday, I'm able to run and jump and talk and to serve tooo! Yays! And I watched X-Men Origins tooooo!
And the thing was that I was sick for 4 days!

But God is good right? He is ever amazing. :D

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I'm just one step closer to my E63! X) Just when I told Kel that if I can see it, I can have it, he laughed! But the next moment, my mummy say let's the phoneeeeee! Hehehehehe!

Sometimes, we got to have a little more faith. As little as a mustard seed is all that it takes.

2009-04-30T22:29:00.004+08:00

Trouble may surround me
My heart may fail
But You never will
You never will

When I found myself worrying so much, these few lines were the only thing that came into my mind. So true, my heart may fail, I may feel dishearten. But still, my Father in Heaven will not fail me, He will not give up on me, and He will not just let me be. He will heal me. (:

Do read Veron's blog. She just updated it. What she typed really touched my heart. (:

And, no. I'm not staying in the hospital. It's just that I kept vomiting out my medication and my mum got very much worried. So she send me to the hospital. But praise the Lord, they gave me and jab to prevent me from vomiting and they asked me to go home! (: So, I'm not staying in the hospital, and I'm not vomiting anymore! Yays! :D

2009-04-27T12:45:00.002+08:00

This is getting from bad to worst. Oh my day!!!

School's connection is so bad that I feel like crying. )': i waited two hours to upload yesterday's pictures. and it's not ok yet! )': and the bubble tea! i miss canteen 1's bubble tea!! )':