my huckleberry friend. (:

Saturday, February 09, 2008

ok, im back.
hmmm, ive got so many random thoughts right now.

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i do love my family; the one in malaysia i mean. i do miss them; every now and then.
well, this trip back made me realised that family is impt. if you do love them, but just keep this feeling to yourself, one day you will regret not letting them know how much you love them.

many changes now.

thinking back, running down memory lane, i just realised how much my grandma aged; how frail she is right now. 3-4 yrs before they shifted to somewhere in malaysia (i don't know what's the name of the place), my grandma could still walk, talk, hang the clothes, etc., and eat on her own. but now, she changed so much. she cant move, cant even talk, and let alone using her own hands to hold the fork and spoon. no matter how much i tried to hold back my tears, i know i cant. this feeling just overwhelmed me a lot. probably that's because i love her so much. did i mention that i stayed with my grandma when i was young? yea,. my parents often put me in malaysia. every 3-4 mths, back to singapore 1 mth, and then back there agn. and when my uncle said "last time used to be ahma feed you, now its your turn." (hokkien), i felt like crying again. and im glad that i did what i felt like doing, instead of watching tv and blah. i did what i wanted to do; 'cause i know if i didn't do it, i'll regret very much.

and yes, my mum and my 4th auntie changed a lot too. in the past, my mum used to sit one corner and read her storybook; on the other hand, my 4th aunt was quite fierce and her kids were afraid of her. but now, they changed. my mum stopped doing her own stuff, my aunt is much friendlier; they get along well. (:

and my cousins. justin came back from australia, anson's in college, sharon's waiting for her boyfriend t propose to her officially, ahlam korkor registered for marriage alr,. and that's left with my 2th uncle's family. i haven seen them for years. the last time i met them was at my grandma's old hse. i do miss them. a lot.

well, i do hope to be able to see them this year. (:

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during my stay in malaysia, i miss church. (:
and just like what my laptop display pic says "Church at home is the focus for us. When we go on tours, we're released to go. But we can't wait to get home and play in church again." and yes!, i can't wait to go church tmr. (: i can't wait to see w238, and VON! =D

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dumb peishan, she said she felt like crying whn i smsed her that i'm going off. LOL! peishan!, 你永远是我的老auntie! simhui 是我的小妹妹! 还有rhoda是大姐姐! =P


// ok, im off. (:

by lileng at 17:14 |