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Tuesday, April 08, 2008

lonestar - amazed.

was reading mich's blog and i read this part which says about hunter's asthma.
got reminded me of my asthmatic problem.
been going on for quite a long time already actually.
i think only marc knows. ah,. it doesn't really matter. that's not the main point.
so many times, i'm afraid.
so many times it happened.
i breathe. but i don't feel the oxygen.
it's like as if nothing goes into my lungs.
i find myself gasping for more air. but still nothing goes in.
take the deepest breath and i feel like as if so little oxygen goes in.
i'm so afraid.

i'm so afraid that one day i find it impossible to breathe, fighting within me to breathe for air.
i'm so afraid that if i go into coma due to lack of oxygen,. dying perhaps.
and unable to go to heaven.

so many times i cried over this matter.

** i feel like watching 1 litre of tears and crying again.

by lileng at 20:57 |